Happy New Year ... Welcome 2011

It is with great happiness that I bid 2010 adieu! I never liked you 2010 I will remember you fondly only for the growth I gained within!

2011 - It is like when a good soaking rain happens after weeks of drought. Such newness, such hope, such faith, such a huge relief. I have spoken to many a friend in regards to what has left and not one person has had much fond things to say upon reflecting on the passing of 2010.

2011 - You have a lot to live up to: I hope I can make you all that I want you to be. Refreshed and Renewed I have big dreams for 2011.

So here it is: HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!

I have no idea what this year holds for us, Hubbs and I, but it can only get better from here. I have with great resolve decided to seek new employment, whether that means changing positions where I am, moving to another store or leaving and starting somewhere fresh. I feel rutted. IF we can sell this house before summer and get moved into a new home things look promising to be settled.

I do not like being unsettled and this Christmas I was reminded of it when asked what is on my Christmas wish list. Sadly I had to actually think of what I would like. Most years I have complied a list of things to dole out to either side of the family for them to pick from, but I know this year was slim pickings for everyone. I really have no place that I am settled and if I could have went to sleep on December 17th and woke up January 2nd I would have. For all intense purposes for me Christmas was canceled. (BAH HUMBUG!!!)

But A New Year is born and Christmas is now a whole year away. Whats not to look forward to? I can't wait I hope that we find a home soon. I think that my need to be settled goes deep into my childhood, for most of which, age 8 - 13, we lived in other peoples houses as we embarked on our family journey to move to America. I wouldn't change most of that it was an essential part of who I am today. Adaptable, patient, emotional and loving. I used to look back on that time as a huge inconvenience, but now after the year I have just had those years were such an adventure. It's really not fun anymore to move back then it seemed so exciting, but being an old soul I dwelled on what I would miss. My inability to live in the moment did me no favors back then, but my ability to appreciate it gives me good justice today. I cannot imagine what my Parents were feeling and thinking when they took our family on the ride to move across the Atlantic. I am just trying to move across Route 4 and I am having a tough time of it!!! (laughter and dry English humor will keep me sane or at the very least amuse me, I usually am the only one to get my own jokes!!)

I hope that when reading this you can get a sense of whats going on, I am not trying to depress anyone with my ramblings, but to express my thought process and why I act the way I do because of what I have been through in my life. I loved England, still do, I don't know if I would have left there if it were up to me. I am still in the spongy stage of taking it all in. My journey, I feel has only just begun.

Til next post...

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